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My boyfriend just put his car in the paper to be sold. So I guess he really wants to move to Hawaii. Can't believe he really wants to go. I mean can I really imagine living on a small island for the next couple of years? I guess with the reality of him leaving had something to do with the crazy dream I had last night. I dreamt that he dies and I was at a utter lost. You see we had got into a fight last night-over something so stupid that I can't even remember. And I guess for some reason I had this crazy dream. I awoke at 5:30 in the morning and cuddled up next to him, heart pounding, and wondering how on earth could I ever live without him. I mean sure we have had our problems the last 6 years. But this guy is my my best friend, my confident, he can be a little jealous but I love him. I can't help it. I mean he is a year and a half younger than me and we basically grew together from two teenagers to now two twenty something adults that have learned so much from each other and know each other so well that well at time that it freaks me out. He can be baby sometimes, but what man can't? I don't know, him leaving to Hawaii might be good for us, our relationship has been a little rocky for awhile. One of the main reasons is he is indecisive, he can't make up him mind. Pharmacy school or Medical school? I mean is it really that hard. I mean pick a career and go with it. I don't get it. Maybe it's me. I am not understanding enough. I don't know. His mom loves me though. So I can say at least we get a long. I mean we get as long as two people who can barely understand each other. You see she's lives in Poland and speak very little English. Though I am trying to learn how to speak polish, though that is a very hard language to learn. I need to learn if this is going to be my family. His mom wants us to come out this year. So I am thinking maybe Christmas. We always spend it with my family why not go to his this time.